Saturday, April 12, 2008

How to Pass out of college?

I have found out what will be the worst day of my life. Its going to be when i pass out of college.

It is soo bloody impossible to have come together with a bunch of 300 people for 4 years, share everything from rooms to clothes to food to your closest secrets with them, open out to them like you've never done with your family even maybe, and then just walk out on them one fine day saying 'Good Bye, I'll keep in touch'

I faced this situation once when i was returning from Sharjah. I'd spent 16 years there (being born there), and i decided never to think about the reality until when i really had to leave UAE. But that last day i will never forget, for I was soo pathetically bathed in tears that day i was to return back to India that I thought I'd never return to mental stability again.

To admit shamelessly,many of my college-mates know me better than my own mother and father even know me. So much that i sometimes feel weird when i'm at home. It's just not normal there sometimes- not without the hostel noise and all the bad words and bottles and smelly toilets and assignment deadlines. Some of my buddies never even go home saying 'It's Boring at home, college is better'..

I really dont know how to face this situation this time. I'm probably going to cry it out. Shamelessly in front of my 300 batchmates (who will probably be in the same state), hundreds of juniors who I've got to know through 4 years, all the faculty and all the people who've made my life at College the best i'll probably have in life.

On second hand, maybe it's not so shameless to cry at all. Not at all. Not for such great memories. But I'll always remember this orkut profile comment of my friend's that is really popular among us now :

"Dont Cry cos it's over, Smile cos it happened..."

How I wish..

5 comments:

Arun Sundar said...

This too shall pass!

nautillus said...

usually i don't get too close to anything or anyone which is no fault of anyone but mine because that's what makes me but i have to say it will take me some time to get over the feeling college is over.i studied in a school for 12 years and made pretty good friends and i still visit those friends and those teachers and the school but i never felt like this when i left that school.no regrets no sentiments whatsoever.but being in this college for only 4 years and leaving it will bring more pain than leaving my school.but eventually i know all of us will move on.stay strong

Hari Vishnu said...

thanx guys.. i guess this is another phase of life i just have to bear out..

rahman said...

I know the feeling...

clearing up your hostel room for the last time, putting all your bags outside and taking one last look at the empty room before you close the door...

Giving a hug to all your friends and watching them stand in a circle as your get into your car, and wave goodbye for the last time...

turn around and see the gates of the college close behind you forever...

Damn, I miss those days!
:(

Hari Vishnu said...

damn! u make me more senti than ever before.. but yea those sights and memories that u mention.. i dread them or even imagining them..